(cw – light talk of unaliving but not in an “I want to actually do that” sense) As I suspected all day the other day, I was going to end up feeling alone and clingy because of my nighttime thoughts. Don’t worry, I was already ahead of that — I’d taken my melatonin and am…
Category: Seth’s Journal
Retail Therapy and Tackling Some Demons
So I engaged in some much needed retail therapy. I bought some new pants, new shirts, new shoes, and a new planner. All of which was under $150. I was really happy with that, because I tend to live on the frugal side since none of my income comes from a stable source — just…
I Know My Purpose, Now
I am obsessed. I cannot stop reading about therapy practices, trauma recovery, relationships and interrelational skills (is that a word?), and I’m starting talking about it in places where I used to be really quiet and nervous (where this subject is the topic of conversation). I’m back to reading about self-leadership and personal development, I’m…
That Was Amazing
I learned a lot about myself this week. Not all of it was good, but all of it had good results so far. For those who have been keeping up, I’ve been trying to write a semi-sane set of posts about limerence when it comes from trauma, and the topic itself is traumatic. This is…
Choosing to Show Up, Sit Down, and Live
Therapy hit me hard, today. This anger I’ve been holding onto has left a metallic taste in my mouth — almost like when you touch your tongue to a 9 volt battery. Just full of the feeling of how incensed adult me is at these people who did so much damage to me — and…
A Segue Into Forgiveness
Yesterday’s post felt so cathartic to write. It’s scary to write things down when I am emotionally charged like that, because as I wrote, I’m not well-acquainted with being angry…or as my coach says, with setting boundaries. Apparently, I’ve been so accustomed to not expressing that emotion that I don’t even know what it is….
I Can’t Write.
(or perhaps this is better titled “The Root of Limerence”) Ok first, that’s a lie. I’ve written 8,500 words in the last 12 hours on yet another WIP that came and hit me in the face last night when I was trying to write about something else. I’ll divulge on it: it’s a sci-fi space…
Apologies for the Lack of Posts!
I actually have a lot more going on than I’ve really talked about on here. One thing has really hit me in the failure department, and I have to sort through that. I think the decision and direction I decide to go with it will be more beneficial than detrimental in the long run. I…
Limerence: The Final Boss of Abandonment Trauma
Let me start by saying that this is most likely going to be a series! In my past posts, which…I’ll get to that in a minute, I shared quite a bit of personal information in regards to leaving a decade of narcissistic abuse, living in a homeless shelter for a few months while I got…
Planting A Rose #01
I just shared the initial WIP for a story that I intend to grow into a full-length novel. Against my editor’s wishes (which she also said this wouldn’t be that big of an issue in the end), I am sharing the building of the story from start to finish. I supposed it would go without…