(freewriting error: i started writing this a few days ago, and just tied it up tonight) So my coach is gone for a week, and I’m keeping myself busy. I’m off today and tomorrow (today is almost over), so I’ve been working on a narrative for a game, doing some deep cleaning, negotiating the removal…
Author: Seth
Pre-Bed Student: My Personal Nighttime Routine and Sleep Stack
First, I am not a doctor. These supplements are available over-the-counter in the US, and work very well for me for the reason I am using them. I came up with this combination back in 2010, and I’m certain I’m not unique in this stack – I believe it’s available as a single dose pill…
First Day Done / Self-Regulation Success
Oh, to get a full eight hours of sleep. At night. All together. I have a lot to talk about but nothing urgent, so I’ll just freewrite as I do. I’m home from work. It was a short day. The original intent was to complete all the onboarding and training modules, but as fate may…
Self-Regulation
(cw – light talk of unaliving but not in an “I want to actually do that” sense) As I suspected all day the other day, I was going to end up feeling alone and clingy because of my nighttime thoughts. Don’t worry, I was already ahead of that — I’d taken my melatonin and am…
Retail Therapy and Tackling Some Demons
So I engaged in some much needed retail therapy. I bought some new pants, new shirts, new shoes, and a new planner. All of which was under $150. I was really happy with that, because I tend to live on the frugal side since none of my income comes from a stable source — just…
I Know My Purpose, Now
I am obsessed. I cannot stop reading about therapy practices, trauma recovery, relationships and interrelational skills (is that a word?), and I’m starting talking about it in places where I used to be really quiet and nervous (where this subject is the topic of conversation). I’m back to reading about self-leadership and personal development, I’m…
That Was Amazing
I learned a lot about myself this week. Not all of it was good, but all of it had good results so far. For those who have been keeping up, I’ve been trying to write a semi-sane set of posts about limerence when it comes from trauma, and the topic itself is traumatic. This is…
Choosing to Show Up, Sit Down, and Live
Therapy hit me hard, today. This anger I’ve been holding onto has left a metallic taste in my mouth — almost like when you touch your tongue to a 9 volt battery. Just full of the feeling of how incensed adult me is at these people who did so much damage to me — and…
A Segue Into Forgiveness
Yesterday’s post felt so cathartic to write. It’s scary to write things down when I am emotionally charged like that, because as I wrote, I’m not well-acquainted with being angry…or as my coach says, with setting boundaries. Apparently, I’ve been so accustomed to not expressing that emotion that I don’t even know what it is….
I Can’t Write.
(or perhaps this is better titled “The Root of Limerence”) Ok first, that’s a lie. I’ve written 8,500 words in the last 12 hours on yet another WIP that came and hit me in the face last night when I was trying to write about something else. I’ll divulge on it: it’s a sci-fi space…