I wanted to post about the meeting, last night, but the roommate and I watched c-list horror movies all night, and I passed out while watching one about a team of live streamers investigating an abandoned asylum in Korea (that wasn’t all that bad). But there was a quote that I heard at the meeting,…
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Relapse, Pt. 2
Sorry about that! I had an idea for an escape plan, and I ended yesterday’s post and started making phone calls and asking around, and I forgot to explain why the two instances were so different in the previous posts. Honestly that sentence alone might be enough. Where one situation is based on an unfounded fear from…
I Relapsed
I’m sorry. I feel like I let a lot of people down. I also have a horribad hangover… I wanted to talk about it a little bit, and compare notes on two very different things I’m dealing with in recovery, and maybe shed light on why I relapsed. I recently overcame the fear of abandonment,…
Slowing Down: A Double-Edged Sword
Day two of that which shall not be named. I’m already starting to see why I prefer the 90 mile a minute lifestyle, even though it’s such a bust on my physical and mental health. If I don’t slow down, I don’t have time to think, and no time to think means no time to…
I Got New Shoes!
I took myself shopping! And I am seriously thinking about a pair of … nope, I know what happens when I plan on something. EDIT — I got a new pair of shoes! They were $35 at Ross, and I really dig the NY Yankees theme. Flat enough to work for when I do power lifting,…
Dear Brain: Look at all this cool shit i’ve done so far! Stop looking for things to be afraid of!
My fever was gone all day! I’ve never been so happy in my life over something so seemingly insignificant! Even my back pain from coughing so much is fading. I’ll continue with the post-ick detox (basically a BRAT diet with potatoes and jello) tomorrow, and hopefully I’ll be able to get started with things on…
It’s Not A Setback
Therapy went as good as can be expected. As soon as I saw her, I doubled over and started sobbing. I told her everything that transpired, and how I feel like it caused a major setback, because I’m so afraid to interact with anyone I feel any level of closeness too because I’m terrified that…
I Went Viral
This is the first time since my “death” scented candle post from the #ForbiddenYankeeCandleScents when I was originally @Bingus (yes, my @AdmoPK was the original Bingus, and I almost regret giving that away). My intent was to poke fun at the idea of everyone who would notice the difference between “your” and “you’re” — including…
Therapy and the Metaphor of Walking in the Dark
Lots of thoughts today… I couldn’t imagine walking in the 100 degree weather we’re having, so I got it done before the sun revealed itself. It was still in the low 80s, even at 4:30am, but I got my goal steps in (7.5k). During the walk, it occurred to me how metaphorical the experience was….
Yay, Therapy! \o/
This is why I love blogging: you can change thought patterns and planned order, even get sidetracked, and not get too mucked up over it, because it’s a blog. Anyway… Yesterday was MSCT (yay!) and we talked about the past week, which, went really well aside from feeling really bummed for awhile over a couple…