Short work day, had my group meeting at 6:30, so I left early. Boss didn’t mind. After that, noticed my bank didn’t deposit my $$ until after it decided to give a petty fee for hitting zero on my balance, then another petty fee for going below zero due to the other petty fee. Then it put…
Category: Admo’s Journal
140 Days Later
I HAVE BEEN WAITING TO WRITE THIS SINCE I MOVED. And I have a lot to cover in a single post, so bear with me. I’ll probably edit in some things that I missed and/or forgot about throughout the week. To catch up, I was first inspired to get better after hearing Samantha Beart share their…
Today I Am Autonomous
As of right this minute, I am completely caught up on all bills and payments. I also have the ability to maintain said bills and payments, so long as I continue my forward progression. In a week, I will be moving into my own place, again. It’s still a safe and secure location that comes…
Closure
I decided to let go and let God in regards to “those two.” Yesterday, I was feeling pressured by others to at least contact them, myself, and tell them I was okay. Like I said, I did not feel comfortable doing that at all. With the help of some recovery folks, I meditated and prayed about all…
What an Incredible Day!
First, I worked out a deal with my insurance company so that I could pay rent. I’m paying insurance on my first full check. After that, I paid rent, but am still going cutting it super close — if I don’t have a full week’s worth of rent paid by 9/6, I’m going to have…
Another Day of Hopeful Progress!
Will make this easy because caffeine hasn’t hit, yet. I’ll list what I have on my plate, and what I’ve done so far to temporarily resolve them. Issues yesterday: my PC is in Pawn ($345 to get out) and was due on the 22nd. Tommie (my 4 month old cat) is still at the house…
Love, Pride, Humility, and Faith
I wanted to post about the meeting, last night, but the roommate and I watched c-list horror movies all night, and I passed out while watching one about a team of live streamers investigating an abandoned asylum in Korea (that wasn’t all that bad). But there was a quote that I heard at the meeting,…
Relapse, Pt. 2
Sorry about that! I had an idea for an escape plan, and I ended yesterday’s post and started making phone calls and asking around, and I forgot to explain why the two instances were so different in the previous posts. Honestly that sentence alone might be enough. Where one situation is based on an unfounded fear from…
I Relapsed
I’m sorry. I feel like I let a lot of people down. I also have a horribad hangover… I wanted to talk about it a little bit, and compare notes on two very different things I’m dealing with in recovery, and maybe shed light on why I relapsed. I recently overcame the fear of abandonment,…
Slowing Down: A Double-Edged Sword
Day two of that which shall not be named. I’m already starting to see why I prefer the 90 mile a minute lifestyle, even though it’s such a bust on my physical and mental health. If I don’t slow down, I don’t have time to think, and no time to think means no time to…