I took myself shopping! And I am seriously thinking about a pair of … nope, I know what happens when I plan on something. EDIT — I got a new pair of shoes! They were $35 at Ross, and I really dig the NY Yankees theme. Flat enough to work for when I do power lifting,…
Category: Admo’s Journal
Dear Brain: Look at all this cool shit i’ve done so far! Stop looking for things to be afraid of!
My fever was gone all day! I’ve never been so happy in my life over something so seemingly insignificant! Even my back pain from coughing so much is fading. I’ll continue with the post-ick detox (basically a BRAT diet with potatoes and jello) tomorrow, and hopefully I’ll be able to get started with things on…
It’s Not A Setback
Therapy went as good as can be expected. As soon as I saw her, I doubled over and started sobbing. I told her everything that transpired, and how I feel like it caused a major setback, because I’m so afraid to interact with anyone I feel any level of closeness too because I’m terrified that…
I Went Viral
This is the first time since my “death” scented candle post from the #ForbiddenYankeeCandleScents when I was originally @Bingus (yes, my @AdmoPK was the original Bingus, and I almost regret giving that away). My intent was to poke fun at the idea of everyone who would notice the difference between “your” and “you’re” — including…
Therapy and the Metaphor of Walking in the Dark
Lots of thoughts today… I couldn’t imagine walking in the 100 degree weather we’re having, so I got it done before the sun revealed itself. It was still in the low 80s, even at 4:30am, but I got my goal steps in (7.5k). During the walk, it occurred to me how metaphorical the experience was….
Yay, Therapy! \o/
This is why I love blogging: you can change thought patterns and planned order, even get sidetracked, and not get too mucked up over it, because it’s a blog. Anyway… Yesterday was MSCT (yay!) and we talked about the past week, which, went really well aside from feeling really bummed for awhile over a couple…
Inspiration: What it is, and Why We Need It
I hate starting with a victim story, but I need to start with then in order to get to now, so I’ll keep it as brief as possible. I endured a tremendous amount of abuse from age four to…some would argue I’m still dealing with parts of it now, though I’ve learned a lot of…
I Am Beside Myself: Guilt, Shame, and the Adventures of Radical Stealth-Care
Yesterday, I spent two hours at the therapist’s office. The first hour was the actual meeting, and the second was recovering from the first. In a nutshell, she got me to open up about how what happened in my life made feel. I can go on for days about what happened. I don’t even flinch…
Looking Back at My First Month Clean
I really shouldn’t plan my writing, just saying. I’m a natural born pantser. I’ve made a new website, instead, and will be moving over there eventually (actually, by the time I post this, I’ll probably change my mind and end up in yet another place…the U-Haul Bloggian, maybe?) I’m probably not going to talk about my…
On Perseverance
tl;dr for my last week’s worth of posts: I started a series of notes to myself, finished the compliment challenge, started working out with a trainer, hit 300lb on my first squats in forever, realized I am in love (with an irl friend — don’t get excited, online fam), possibly got a really good job,…