Looks like my IPSRT is really holding well. Over the weekend, I was having trouble maintaining a normal schedule, but it wasn’t anything within my control, so actually listening to myself and allowing myself the room to sleep it off was less an aversion to IPSRT rules and more about doing what I could to maintain said rules within my abilities at the time. In other words, sleep is okay, and pain management moreso. Taking care of your body is okay. It’s when you start ignoring your personal needs — and try to do things you can’t — that everything else go haywire.
In addition, staying up until 3am the other night turned out to be a good thing as well. While it isn’t attuned to my 12am-8am sleep schedule, staying up and using extra energy (due to either the extra energy from sleeping off the pain I was in, a manic episode, or who knows what else it could have been) ended up being a boon in several places: I never crashed out. I never lost control of myself. I never felt the need to reach out to folks to readjust.
Not to mention, after it was all said and done, I ended up falling back into my original schedule.
Other things to note:
- I still made it to my online meetings
- I still ate my scheduled meals
- I still made PHP classes
- I still stayed close to the programs that are helping me heal
- I also still made room for my close friends and people that matter to me
So yeah, despite the wonky changes and distractions, I have no reason to be sad about how I handled it. Which I didn’t, but it definitely felt nice to hear someone else say that…especially folks who know what they’re talking about.
